Yesterday I battled with taking a "break" from eating healthy and in moderation and wanted a bad day. You know what I mean. We have all thought about it. Battled with it and most of us, done it. We want the Ice cream, chocolate, pizza, maybe some fun alcohol and then put a bow on it, your done. That's what I wanted to do so badly when we went shopping and my hubby kept asking for all the "good stuff". In the end we did have a little bit of a bad night but instead, I had a tiny cup of ice cream {those little $1 individual size ice creams} and I had 5 pizza roll's and some alcohol. Normally if I was having a cheat I kinda end up blowing up trying out everything tasty. Then I wake up feeling awful and it wasn't because I got my drunk on. Anyway, I tried something new last night because depriving myself when I really want something "bad" can end up catastrophic, so I have it but only a little. This morning I still feel gross eating that kind of food. I know it's bad for me, but oh boy am I happy I didn't overeat. I have been so good and I refuse to let go of my weightloss and all the work I have put into making my body better, fitter, and all around healthy. I want to keep off this dreaded weight. I want to life a healthy life. I want healthy food to excite me everyday. I don't want to crave a "Cheat day" anymore. I want to be focused all the time. I know it's possible. I know that I can do it, and I definitely want it bad enough. Watching the Olympics last night I saw determination, dedication and commitment in their eyes. Each person had this heavy drive that inspired me to give maybe more than a hour a day of work outs. Maybe I can do more. Screw maybe, I CAN do more.
Here is to a new day, a beautiful day that is going to be AWESOME! I am pumped and ready to pull through and become the person I see in my mind. I know what I want and I wont let anything get in my way, not even MYSELF.
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