Fit me. Fit life. Fit Monday’s.

So I’ve been battling again lately. Vacation eating with non-vacation eating. It took me a few days of being back home to face realize that eating a bad dinner every night plus a sweet is a bad bad thing, because it makes me feel bad. Sometimes we need a little reminder of why certain foods are usually off limits. As I age I realize that there are more and more of “those” foods. Bad foods that make me feel awful.

I sure remember the days when I could eat pizza and ice cream every day without feeling sick. I remember when Halloween rolled around and I’ve eat candy all day long. Now just thinking of that type of food reminds me how horrible I feel after eating them. It’s a good thing but every so often I forget just how bad that food is. Like a vacation when I ate chocolate or a cookie plus a bad dinner like burgers and fries or pizza. All so bad for me and every morning I awoke feeling full and groggy.

It’s been about a week since I’ve been back. I did a detox of cutting out all grains, sugars and dairy. It was hard, but the best decision because it got me back into a “reality” mindset that I needed.

Lately I am loving veggies. I love making juices from my favorites. Like carrot, apple and spinach juice. Sounds gross, but it is really good and sweet tasting. I am also loving apples and berries. I read some skinny “rules” from biggest loser, and one was eat and apple or berries every single day. I love how good and clean eating them makes me feel. I also am itching for fall to take over this heat wave. #Ifuckingwishitwasfall so I have been drinking teas and eating soups and doing everything I can to “act” like it is my favorite time of the year.

As far as working out, I am still in love with my elliptical machine and started doing some short runs/walk with the kids again since it’s not 110 out anymore but still 90-100’s. I can’t wait for 70-80’s and I’ll be able to call myself a “runner” again.

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Start Weight: 228 pounds

Current Weight: 157 pounds

Total lost weight: 71 pounds

Weight left to lose:  17 pounds

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Fit Mind. Fit Life. Fit Me. Fit Mondays.

What a stressful week is has been. Last week I didn't even post a Weightloss Monday post because our oldest daughter was diagnosed with Autism. I shared last week about how we are all adjusting to how we work with our little lady. This past week I was so busy that I did not work out much but did watch what I ate and did not do any unnecessary snacking or over eating. I have felt full but not over full all week. Since I only lost a half a pound, this week my goal will be to work out 3 days this week and also be sure to work out while on vacation. 

Vacations. Oh yes, we all love them and prepare for them and then we have a blast and come back feeling exhausted and usually with a pound or two joining us. This time our vacation I am extremely prepared to have fun for a week with our two little kids as well as taking care of my health. So, how do I plan on keeping fit and not gaining weight this vacation? Here is how... 

1. Stock the fridge in our timeshare with health foods. Fruits and light snacks.

2. Find the Gym at the facility and take turns with my husband to work out for some quiet time to ourselves. 

3. Do fun things that require a lot of walking. Hiking, maybe go to the zoo, or even swimming.

4. Be sure to check out calories when eating out. Sometimes even a salad can be a days worth of calories. Eat out in moderation. 

Weight loss This week: 0.5

Start Weight: 228

Current Weight: 157 

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WIW today

Emotional Battle Fields {Race Day}

I ran a 17k {exactly 7.42 miles} yesterday! I did it and am so proud of myself! It was the longest I have ran since I was a young wipper snapper {18}. Race day caused several emotions to surface. It was an emotional battle field in my mind all day long.




Let me tell you first off I was so nervous that I couldn't sleep and tossed and turned all night long. When I got up and snuck out of the house at 6am, I was still stomaching nerves which now followed with excitement. As the hour approached and I was meeting all my race buddies {Team Rocklin Crunch Fitness}, I was battling embarrassment because these gorgeous women were all much thinner and looked like they were better runners than I . I overheard chatting about running 7-9 minute mile runs while I stood quiet all the while knowing I was running a 10-11 minute mile runs. I knew then, they would be running lapse around me. When we all lined up at the start line, there were so many people {over 600 runners running the 12k}. As the race started and I hit the first 1 mile marker, all I could think about were the kids, grandparents and new mothers that were passing me over and over again. My internal competitiveness was taking over and I wanted to go faster but I knew that I wouldn't finish if I tired myself out. It wasn't until mile 4 that I finally overcame my depression of being a slow runner. It was then that I finally got into a grove and ran only to finish and to NOT stop. Up hills and down hills, past beautiful homes and cheering spectators I did run. Some funny things happened, like an 8 year old ran with me the whole time passing me at the end and one runner stopped at a garage sale to buy a bike {haha}. When I saw the 6 mile marker, I was in near tears because I had not run this far in years, and when I finally saw that 7 mile marker I was overwhelmed with excitement that it was  almost  over. My husband joked earlier that he could run 7 miles {ha yeah right} but that last .42 miles would kill him. He was sure right about that. It felt like forever. As I approached the balloons and all the shouting and cheering people, I wanted so bad to be able to sprint my way to the end but I was so tired. I tried to sprint but settled with just running as fast as I could. When I finally passed that magic finish line, I raised my hands in the air {just like Rocky would have}. It was over. I DID IT! This time, I won the battle field and it felt so good. I knew I wanted more. I wanted that feeling again. I felt invisible. Despite the emotions that overtook my mind, I want to know again that I can move mountains {because that is what it felt like}. If I could do this, I can definitely get through school, keep my kids alive.



Now when I came home, I was unbelievably tired. In 10 minutes I passed out and slept for 3 hours {I couldn't even help it}. I felt so old. Later that day, I felt so good {such a runners high} I decided to take the kids to the park {a 3 mile walk}.

Today I am Rickity Cricket. I feel like the rusted tin man. I am so so sore, though I can't wait to get back out on that road. That pavement that has become my friend. I will train hard. I will train longer and I will get to feel those race day feeling all over again.

Here are some more pictures of the race.

Weightloss Monday {a good read this week}

This week I battled. Not with weight loss, but with in myself. I battled because I felt like was "deserving" of unhealthy food because I have been doing so well. If you are a woman, you may have felt this way a time or two yourself. We have all been there and myself, I kept coming back to thinking that way. I was good all week and kept reminding myself that I don't "deserve" unhealthy, food but that my body "deserves" healthy food. I started reminding myself that this is it. This is my life. It is happening now. It is raw, it is real. It is beautiful in a pile of ugly. It is simple or the most complicated thing we have. We are the deciders of our lives. We make our own rules, or at least the decision to follow others rules. This past week, I feel like my mind is evolving. I can feel it. I am not only choosing healthier, I am thinking healthier. This is something I have battled for years, thinking healthy now just for short term but long term. I was a Vegan for 5 years, but I was way skinny, had nearly zero muscle, and only cared about how clothes looked on me {Nothing else}. If someone looked at me and knew I was Vegan, they would probably say, wow she was healthy. I was not. I ran 5 miles nearly every day, but was dizzy almost everyday. I ate a ton of food and was never really hungry, but my hair was frizzy and unhealthy, my nails never grew. Little things like that should have been red flags to a healthy person. I know now. I know that eating food is what we do everyday to keep yourself alive and thriving. Alive and thriving. I want to eat foods that cure the body not slowly act as poison. I want food that nourish me, not disable me from wanting to get up after a meal. If I am what I eat, I want to be fruits and veggies and lean meats with sprinkles or herbs and spices. I want flavors to excite me, not mound of sugar in ice and cream. Over these years I have come to find that some food fuel me {fruits, veggies, some lean meats} and others bring me down and cause bloating, lethargy and mood changes {dairy, processed foods, sugar}. I want to change, but I am not going to say a fresh start. Its not that it's just work. Work on my mind. Constant internal training to continue with my weight loss journey. I am here. I will always be here improving myself. If you want it too, join me in a link up party. Share your success, or battle or thoughts. I would love to hear and I am sure my reader will also read in delight to real and raw women sharing the truth to weight loss or thinking and being healthy consistently.

Also I am think of changing the name of this series. Something like "Fit Mind, Fit life. How I am getting there"  or "Fit Mind. Fit Life. Fit Me. Fit Mondays" What do you guys like better?

Weightloss This week: 

Start Weight: 228

Current Weight: 158 {lost a half a pound, almost in the 157}

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p.s. Woke up bloated and craving chocolate. I am also wearing clothes today because I got a huge coffee burn all over my tummy and it's gross.

My need for the day is Fit Inspiration

Yesterday I battled with taking a "break" from eating healthy and in moderation and wanted a bad day. You know what I mean. We have all thought about it. Battled with it and most of us, done it. We want the Ice cream, chocolate, pizza, maybe some fun alcohol and then put a bow on it, your done. That's what I wanted to do so badly when we went shopping and my hubby kept asking for all the "good stuff". In the end we did have a little bit of a bad night but instead, I had a tiny cup of ice cream {those little $1 individual size ice creams} and I had 5 pizza roll's and some alcohol. Normally if I was having a cheat I kinda end up blowing up trying out everything tasty. Then I wake up feeling awful and it wasn't because I got my drunk on. Anyway, I tried something new last night because depriving myself when I really want something "bad" can end up catastrophic, so I have it but only a little. This morning I still feel gross eating that kind of food. I know it's bad for me, but oh boy am I happy I didn't overeat. I have been so good and I refuse to let go of my weightloss and all the work I have put into making my body better, fitter, and all around healthy. I want to keep off this dreaded weight. I want to life a healthy life. I want healthy food to excite me everyday. I don't want to crave a "Cheat day" anymore. I want to be focused all the time. I know it's possible. I know that I can do it, and I definitely want it bad enough. Watching the Olympics last night I saw determination, dedication and commitment in their eyes. Each person had this heavy drive that inspired me to give maybe more than a hour a day of work outs. Maybe I can do more. Screw maybe, I CAN do more.

Here is to a new day, a beautiful day that is going to be AWESOME! I am pumped and ready to pull through and become the person I see in my mind. I know what I want and I wont let anything get in my way, not even MYSELF. 

  

Weightloss Monday + Inspiration

Hello Monday.

I have a case of you. 

Sincerely,
I need more coffee

Okay, so now that I told you I am tired, here goes a blog post. It's all about weightloss even though I didn't lose any. I am still stuck at 159. I have been increasing my exercise even more so this past week and I am see less and less of that nasty stuff we women know to be called cellulite. Awe does it run in my side of the family, so if I am not constantly working on it, it ATTACKS. Okay enough of my 'lack of coffee' humor. I also decreased my calories by 100 cals just because I think I need a little kick. Currently I have been eating around 1200-1300 cals a day. I still am not eating grains, or dairy. I still have an occasional sweet, but cut most all of it out of my diet. I truly love eating the whole9 lifestyle.

Oh my I almost forgot. My weightloss story was featured on a health blog. Check me out over at {Healthy Beautiful Blog}. Also on the current weightloss photo's I added a few extra of me sporting my new work out shirt I made. I dyed it then made a stencil and painted it to the shirt. 

Start Weight: 228
Current Weight:159

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